Of Dirt-Bagging and Peanut Butter

Of Dirt-Bagging and Peanut Butter

***Note on the text: I, the author, begrudgingly and apologetically switch from 1st to 2nd person point-of-view narration quite often. It was necessary to carry out my message. Despite, enjoy.

In J.R.R. Tolkien’s classic trilogy, The Lord of the Rings, he titles a chapter, “Of Herbs and Stewed Rabbit”. Within, Tolkien details a rare “in-between-the-action” moment, when Frodo, Sam, and Smeagol prepare a meal of herbs and stewed rabbit (and po-ta-toes). As for me, I attempt to do something similar, describing a “blissful” day in the life of myself, when I’m homeless in an inspiring place.

Back in September of ’16, I purchased a 2005 Ford Ranger Extended Cab (with a camper shell), as a result of my deep appreciation for the immediate access it could provide to the country’s most beautiful trails. I was just beginning to become obsessed with the sport of Mountain-Ultra-Trail Running (which is a story in itself) and was longing for epic solo “adventure” runs in bucket-list locations. Inspired by many “van-lifers” and other vehicle dwellers who came before me, I set out to transform my set of wheels into a livable entity.

WARNING: In general, this lifestyle isn’t for everyone, no matter what you see on Instagram. Get comfortable with being uncomfortable, because discomfort (and disorganization) is guaranteed, despite your level of regimentation.

Chapter 1: Arising from Dreamland: Waking up in the bed of my truck is pretty cool. However, there is a troubling sense of doing something vaguely illegal? Frowned-upon? Depraved? There is a low-level discomfort with the possibility of being caught. Because I’m…doing what, though? Sleeping? When in town, I aim for stealth, usually pinpointing hotel parking lots, apartment complexes, or behind old businesses (Olympic Auto Shop in Lake Placid, NY, for example). Unfortunately, the sun rises at 5am in July on the east coast, and slowly starts to cook you inside the canopy…no matter what the outside temperature is…and you better hope it hadn’t rained during the night, because if it did, you would have gotten zero hours of sleep. The noise of raindrops is audibly accentuated as they smack your tin camper shell roof. Oh, yeah, another thing…if you decided to park in a business lot, you must make sure to wake up before the store manager arrives to open up shop in the pre-dawn hours…he or she will most likely report your vehicle that is mysteriously parked in their parking lot overnight.

So, after squirming around in the bed of your truck, desperately trying not to bang your head on the roof (muscles still excruciatingly stiff from the previous day’s effort in the mountains) while trying to open your Velcro curtains, it’s time to make your bed while on your knees, refraining from getting a leg cramp, as 360-degree turns-to-grab-something are virtually impossible. You crawl out of your tailgate like a Zombie, quickly scanning the surrounding area for any sign of human activity, and finally enjoy an early morning stretch, without being noticed by passerbys or townsfolk.

Typically, a half hour passes by from when my alarm sounds off and actually closing my tailgate with both feet on the outside ground, in shoes, ready to depart.

Chapter 2: Let it Flow: Bathroom needs can be an issue while living in the truck…which is why I saved an empty jug of orange juice as a solution for #1. It’s nice having my toilet within arms’ reach throughout the night, not having to scramble out of my coop. Ah, perks of being a guy. For #2, well, that’ll just have to wait.

Chapter 3: Breakfast: First, you must drive away from civilization to be able to use your camper stove on your tailgate. Who knows if it’ll even work. Hmm, where to drive…where to park…you grab your phone and study the Maps app and Safari to pinpoint a location.

Once relocated, you tinker with your camper stove that may or may not have a fuel leak from the pump. Great. How will you eat? Well, there is a few slices of bread leftover in the cooler and a jar of peanut butter. You look for a spoon. You don’t have one. A knife will do. The bread you eat cold, washed down with a gallon jug of water from a gas station. Yum.

Chapter 4: Run: After brushing off bread crumbs from your driver’s seat, you grab your handy Adirondack map and meticulously route a manageable ten mountain miles over some sure-to-be sketchy terrain. You locate an index card to scribble some turn-by-turn directions for the trails. You drive the 30 minutes to the trailhead (at this point, 2+ hours have passed in your day).

After changing into running clothes and stuffing a few gels into your pocket, you snatch a water bottle and head for the sloppy, muddy, beautifully rugged trail that awaits you.

The skies are threatening. Maneuvering over wet alpine rock makes for a sketchy outing, so you cross your fingers that it doesn’t downpour.

Two hours and a bagged mountain peak later, you arrive at the truck, soaked with sweat and rainwater, smelly and dirty. Time to shower.

Chapter 5: Hygiene: As you pull into the parking lot of a local gym, you prepare to drop $60 to become a member for the monthly stint that you are there for…to use their bathroom, sink, and shower.

You scramble through your bags for clean clothes and hygienic materials to bring inside (this usually takes longer than you think). You sheepishly walk inside, straight to the bathrooms without being too self-conscious of your obvious visible filth, and of your awkward walking gait due to major chafing on the inside of your thighs.

You try not to make a mess in the shower rooms, as the mud crusted to your legs begs to fall off and cover the floors. Every single “bro” stares you down, as they mix their protein shakes in front of their lockers. After a long shower (with sandals on), you squirm and tip-toe around the shower stall, trying desperately to get your clean clothes on without getting them wet or dirty.

Once showered, you head back out to your truck, open your camper shell, and put your wet, smelly, sweaty, muddy running clothes in your hanging laundry bag, which is no more than a Nike tote bag that hangs three feet from your sleeping headspace. Extremely filthy clothes smell great when you are trying to sleep in an enclosed, hardly-ventilated dungeon.

Chapter 6: Food: After burning 3,000 calories on your mountain run, you’re starving and willing to eat almost anything. In Lake Placid, everything is super expensive because it’s a summer resort town in the mountains, with rich Olympic history and a charming mystique that electrifies it. So, instead of dropping 11 dollars on a burrito, I opt for a banana that’s two days rotten, a warm apple, and some more peanut butter from the jar via my knife. I realize I need more calories so I desperately open a can of black beans I’ve had stored in my truck, and dump about half the can into my mouth. And since I haven’t had coffee for three days (due to my malfunctioned camper stove), I wash my lunch down with more water from the jug.

Chapter 7: The Time in Between: I have yet to speak to anybody all day, which is a lot harder than you may think. I’m pretty comfortable in my own headspace but even then, there are times that I yearn for someone to share my thoughts or a view with.

In town, Lake Placid is sure-to-be bustling, so I depart the gym parking lot and find a parking spot downtown, making sure not to get potentially towed. I get out and gingerly walk past all the shops, still feeling the day’s effort and acting like I have a real agenda.

After making a couple rounds to kill time, I head for the truck. It’s now 4:30 in the evening and I start thinking about dinner. I opt for something other than bread and peanut butter and grab a quick sub on the way back to my wheels.

Chapter 8: A Day’s End: Where will I sleep tonight? What mountain will I run tomorrow? What time should I wake up? These thoughts are constant. As the sun sets, I drive around seemingly aimless, searching for a secret spot to stealthily tuck my vehicle into. I opt for Olympic Auto, again, at the south end of downtown, nestled at the bottom of a quiet street, away from busy roads.

I switch my headlights off and pull behind the shop, shutting my truck off and making sure my presence went unnoticed. I grab the essentials for the night, knowing I won’t be getting out of my perch once I’m in the cocoon: phone, keys, knife, chapstick, water jug…check.

I open the tailgate, climb in. I crack my windows, turn on my battery-powered fan, and Velcro down my curtains (homemade via bed sheets). In fact, almost everything about my truck camper is homemade or self-invented. As I fidget with my sleeping bag and pillow arrangement, I climb up on my loft, sinking into my two-decades-old futon mattress, knowing I have a scarce eight inches from my head to the shell roof.

Ah, sleep. Thinking about my day and the days to come, I reflect: I talked to one human today, the 40-year old woman working at the sub shop. I may have brushed my teeth today? Don’t remember. It doesn’t matter because I accomplished one thing today, the one fulfillment of a damn good day in my world, a mountain run to a summit and back down.

As I doze off to Dreamland, I take a few delicious moments to appreciate and soak up the good fortune of being young and in the mountains, running free.



Who knew? Who knew that a lonely prominent chunk of Earth, of bare rock, dirt, snow, trees, and grass, high up in the clouds, could demand so much human respect? Who knew?

Who knew? Who knew that one day She would earn a name? Who knew that She would cause a human being to toil for hours, to lose sleep, to sacrifice relationships, JUST to stand on top of Her (multiple times) as a champion of a foot race? Who knew?

Who knew? Does She care? Nope. A trip, a fall, a bloody gash, screaming calves, shredding quads, hallucinations, She still doesn’t care.

There She stands, unwavering, unfazed, relentless…moody, yet unchanging. Alone in Her thoughts, in Her mind, seldom sharing with her neighbors Esther and Moose.

Barely noticing hundreds of stomping feet on Her east face, She offers Pain and Prize, yet holds no grudges and deals no judgement.

Who knew? Who knew I would be up late on a Saturday night writing an ode of respect to a…Mountain?

Yep. I’ll know.

Confusion, Infusion, Resolution

Confusion, Infusion, Resolution

Planted in a seat of confusion, infused with equatorial originated liquid gold, I stare. The windows stare back. Beyond, atmospherical deluge slaps the pavement. It’s April in SW Michigan…and April means one thing: trails of smushed leaves left over from the Fall, saturated with water and mud, creating a luge-like uniform trench. Bingo. Confusion…resolution.

Happy trails. 🐾

Cupping @Theta Ridge Coffee LLC

Cupping @Theta Ridge Coffee LLC

Theta Ridge Coffee, located in the heart of South Bend’s manufacturing labyrinth on the northwest side, is one of the largest coffee bean importers in the Midwest. Of all Theta’s clientele, interestingly, Infusco is the shortest drive, to and fro…which makes sense that today, January 19, a dreary Thursday morning, heading over to the Bend was a no-brainer.

Hailing from Infusco, Jess, Aaron, and I were the lucky few who reserved our place to experience a small tour of the coffee bean palace, along with the highly anticipated “cupping”, to conclude. Kevin, the owner of Theta Ridge, guided us through and was kind enough to let us snap photos, scribble notes, and ponder aloud the mystique that is the coffee bean.

Highlighted below are some pictures and little snippets of bean information. Enjoy:





In the back of the facility, about 60 different beans are stashed atop the concrete.

Worldwide, coffee beans are the 2nd largest traded commodity. Oil is number one.







Within these burlap bags, the beans are green, not yet roasted. Green beans are much denser and do not grind like roasted beans (don’t make this mistake). The artwork from the different nations is pretty cool.

On a map, coffee beans are grown almost entirely between the Tropic of Cancer and the Tropic of Capricorn. AKA, high in altitude, hot, humid environments. In recent years, according to Kevin, Southern California is the northernmost point that beans have successfully been grown.



Above, Kevin guides Aaron, Jess, and I through “cupping”, which is the practice of individually noting the aromas and tasting notes of newly roasted beans, or old faithfuls.

The method:

  1. Make sure the spoon is clean.
  2. With the spoon, push back the crema atop the cup’s circumference to break up and reveal the aromas of the bean.
  3. Rinse spoon completely, dry off, and repeat the process at each cup.
  4. Each bean is tested in five different cups to allow your smelling senses to adapt and hold on to the different aromas, completely.
  5. Rinse the spoon before moving on to the next bean.

(We also used the same method to taste each bean by slurping probably a 1/2oz of liquid from each cup.)

Much like beer, aromas and tasting notes are classified usually by foods or other consumable items such as maple sap or agave. There are over 25,000 possible different tasting notes in all types of coffee beans, yet there is no “right” answer as everyone possesses a different palate.

When the word acidity is mentioned when dealing with coffee, for starters, just equate it to a beer’s hop profile. The taste almost “kicks” off your tongue.

The lighter the roast, the more imperfections are detectable.

Today, the four beans we focused on were:

  1. Kenya AA (red wine, raisin, fruit)
  2. JAVA via Indonesia (syrupy body, pleasant finish)
  3. Brazil Bob O’ Link (maple, sweet, fruit)
  4. Brazil Daterra Sweet Blue (dark chocolate bar)

The original “cuppers” of the Daterra bean are considered very special, “amazing” coffee bean enthusiasts. Year after year, after being mechanically picked, the aromas and tasting notes of the roasted bean are exactly the same, even when grown on different parts of the farm. Unreal stuff.



All in all, coffee (like beer) is pretty complex…and if you don’t care for things such as aromas and hop profiles…methods of roasting and brewing…the liquid you consume is still delicious and, in the end, that’s all that really matters. Right?

Now go and enjoy the bean at Infusco and the hop at Greenbush.

Sawyer is cool.


Memories of My Canine Friend

Fritz, German Shorthaired-Pointer, Oct. 2002 – Jan. 2017

I wrote a short poem, here, the day my dad buried him in Arndt soil.

Below are some memories that’ll last a lifetime:


Building fires in the woodstove for you to lay in front of…

Playing indoor hide-n-seek with you, then letting you lick me with great joy once I was found…

Spreading tuna juice over your food…

Running with you at Spicer Lake, through a foot of powder, without a leash…

Relentlessly getting followed after I popped a bag of popcorn, your favorite snack…

Witnessing you find and kill a groundhog…and bunnies…and mice…

Watching squirrels mock you from the safety of the power line at Zigler St…

Watching you flush birds out of the Arborvitaes in the yard…

Getting tangled up in blankets and having you dig your nose through them all to find me…

Chasing you around the yard only to get consistently juked by your elusiveness…

Witnessing you go into my bedroom and steal my Beanie Babies to flip around in the living room…such self-control by not ripping them…

Taking you with me into the shower to give you baths…using baby shampoo for your fur…

Marveling at your recogniztion of “running clothes” as opposed to “casual clothes”…following up with relentless begging to join us running, usually at Spicer…

Barking and chasing the Canadian Geese as they flocked and soared across the sky…

Leaving a plate of hot food on the hearth and marveling at your self-control not to approach it, even for a sniff…

Watching you eat wild apples that fell from the apple tree in the front yard…

Letting you outside for up to an hour, never once worrying about you crossing the border into neighbor territory…even without an electric fence or shock collar…

Petting the white stripe of fur between your eyes until you fell asleep by the fire…

Writing down details of every run with you in my high school run journals…looking back through them, most were during winter training for the upcoming track season…

In your peak years, still the fastest dog I’ve ever seen…stayed lean and fit even unto your 13th year of living…probably logged close to 15,000 miles of running with our family in parks and country roads…on and off the leash…

I Run, because…

I Run, because…

…it feels so good to get out in the weather and feel that air through my hair, breathing fresh air, feeling that sweat build up, contracting muscles, entire body moving, active mind, thinking about your life, changing pace when needed, pushing yourself to limits, struggling comfortably for air, lungs expanding and compressing, leg muscles bulging in and out, arms swinging, foot strike, almost naked, in heat, dump water on your head, spitting, blisters, holes in shoes, worn out shoes, heat, rain, snow, wind, cold, people can see you performing, crowd-pleasing, chanting, alone, in groups, motivating others, facial expressions showing effort, pride, commitment, purpose, running for a cause, comfortable clothing and shoes, flashy gear, fitness, heart rate, running vs time, mad at the ground, health, more energy, endorphins, drug, getting high, pain, glory, fame, the calm before the storm, no escaping the present, working in your own power, self-coached, natural sport, born to run, born to move, run for God, breathe in His holiness, failing, repeating, failing, repeating, failing, repeating, succeeding, fuel up, chocolate milk, stretching, strong core, sexy legs, shaved legs, fast legs, headbands, short shorts, no shirt, if Frodo can do it then so can we, motivated by song, freedom, freedom to do whatever you want during a run, lonely open country road, surrounded by fields, crickets chirping, cars are your enemy, race them, wooded trail, peace, finding your way, improvement, pitch black nighttime run, early a.m. run, moonlit run, guided by light, dogs chasing you, just you vs. the open road or trail or track, bad days, good days, the feeling after a run, live for it, die for it…I’M BORN TO RUN.

Collegiate Running Journey

  • USI XC, 2013 (Redshirted – right medial tibial stress fracture)
  • USI Track, 2013-14 (Redshirted – left medial tibial stress fracture)
  • USI XC, 2014 (Ineligible – academics)


  • Valpo Track, 2014-15 (Ineligible – transfer/academics)